Just a short note to say I have come a long way from where I was 6 or 7 months ago. I am doing much better and can see things differently. It is amazing how God helps us transition through the dark times in life. He will continue to do just that for me.

I love you all.

Ok. It has been a while for me and I have been very busy trying to get my business up and running in Indiana. However, I am doing much better. I felt so lost through all of the transition this year. I have been in deep hurt and pain and no where to find rest. I know the scripture that Jesus said “Come unto me all who are heavy laden and I will give you rest”. That was my King James memory version.

Jesus didn’t always find rest. He found himself needing rest a lot. I am thankful that he knew how to get it and he knew how to give it as well. I have found a little of that rest amongst the turmoil. I have experienced for the first time in years what it feels like to hunt for a church to fit into.

My wife and I have found a church with most of the characteristics of what we like. Good music, Relevant preaching, relaxed atmosphere, great children’s ministry, and donuts and coffee “In the SANCTUARY”!!! They got to be a little off their rocker because they are letting me play the bass this Sunday. Just Kidding. Ok, maybe not.

All in all, I feel much better now. That phrase reminds me of a scene I saw in Quest for the Holy Grail. You know which one I’m talking about. “I’m feeling much better”. I’m not quiet dead yet. I think God can still squeeze a few good things out of me yet.

Listen. If you ever are feeling very low and need someone to talk to, don’t hesitate to call. My dad would love to help you.

So, just keep looking up and I’m sure things will get better. Maybe they won’t get better but at least you can look at things differently. Just look how well I am doing. HA!

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I was having a very difficult few days and I decided to start the blogging again. Thanks to my dear family member who prompted me to do so. Let me begin by saying this is probably the first writing I have done since my mother passed in April.

I can’t for the life of me begin to open the portals of my brain and let it all seep out yet. I will start with very small steps. I am at least not so mad at God that I would say anything bad towards Him. I sure did a few months ago. I could make the statement that I think I am beggining to cope with things but the better statement would be a question. Am I coping?

I’m not sure of the answer right now. I will only watch and wait for the answer to reveal itself to me. I know I had a lot riding on my mom’s healing and with that not at the forefront I seem to have the constant struggle with my faith. Does God still do the things He said He would do in His word? I believe it in my heart but not in my head. Will God see you through? Yes, but the through He will see you is left to be determined.

I can do what I have been taught as a child. Start with the basics. Is God real? YES! Did Jesus come to earth and die on a cross to save me from HELL? YES! Do I feel like HELL? YES! Are there any Christians out there that are not judging me at this moment for the last line I just wrote? Maybe?

I have met a new low in my life and it comes and goes with each moment of the day. I think now it may be coming with each moment of the week. I am anxious for the day when It becomes a month and then a year. I have been to the bottom before and came back. I know with time I will see things much differently. It is very apparent who loves you when you are in this passage of life.

I have just ended 3 days of much spiritual struggle and emotion. I will come back to this and spend more time with this thought of life and death.

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